Cooperation

I've been working with my brother on a cooperative game and we're learning yet again how to be a team. Whenever you have to work with someone even if it is your brother there are things that you have to do to make things turn out allright. I'm of the opinion that America in it's loud and proud celebration of the individual makes cooperation the hardest thing that a person will have to learn.

People complain about divorce rates, about corperations, government and other things that involve many people and therein we see the what it is that Americans need to learn more than any other thing. Trust, and cooperation. I include myself in this group as I find it hard to depend on others to keep me going be it in work or school I'm fiercely independant. However I recognize that there are many things that I not only have to rely on others to do for me but that at some point should I achieve my dream of running a business like pixar, or disney that I'll have to rely on others to the extent that my livelyhood depends on them and that I'll have little influence on whether or not they can do such a thing and I will have to trust them implicitly.

Realizing this I'm trying to learn how people work and function and how I might be able to integrate myself into society when I make few friends easily and I prefer to work alone.

If you ever were to ask yourself this question how do I choose my friends I don't know how you would. I know how I choose friends though. I look to how they treat other people. Many people act friendly but aren't nice, and others are real assholes. I take a while to choose a friend and many times others treat me as a friend far before I'll give them that label. There are qualities I look for that I am unwilling and unable to explain that I use to judge a person.

There are a few times where a person and I connect for a few seconds and I automatically know that should circumstance put us together we'll end up friends for a life time but often the rigors of life pull us apart.

Because of these attitudes I believe that my problems with the opposite sex should be apparent. Often I take longer than is neccessary to warm up to people and when relationships are involved people are more picky as well, making for some awkward moments. As much as people tell you that you should admit to someone of the opposite sex that you like them it's a hard thing to do and be taken seriously. And it's even harder if people in that position have been taken away from you in life, or you've found that the feelings aren't mutual.

I made a few friends last year but different majors forced us apart. I'm still trying to learn people this year and I have a few candidates for the label of friend. I think that that label comming from me is a big deal and I know that it's pompous. Best friends is a hurdle that a person can't even earn it comes from being friends for a while and sharing experiences, I don't bestow that it just happens.

This all came from a message I got through the internet recently from one of my Original "Best Friends." who lives in Reno. I thought I'd lost him but he's arround and still kicking. It was great to connect after more than 14 years apart. To know that he still thought of me kindly was great.

Anyway (get out your drinking glasses)

Here's to Us

There's damned few

And we're looking ahead. (Drink)

-Zex out